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Friday, January 08, 2010

Fri, 08 Jan 2010 15:19:59 GMT

已经很久没干这种事了-- 听着感伤的情歌，写着蓝蓝的心事。

现在的小孩管这叫‘emo’。

很久没有 emo 了。

crap 也很少了。

周老师谈恋爱了！

昨天看到他的 Multiply 相簿里有好几张情侣照。

两个人好亲昵呢。

SY 和 XH 有小 baby 了！

他们的喜悦，连电话另一端的我也感受到了。

自从我跟　HY 说我认识　JJC 那班人以后

他似乎对我有点冷冷的。　　Hmmm... 下次问　Susu

好想念　meow meow oh...

说什么好呢？

说我的乱七八糟的人生吗？

lessons learnt

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 17:13:07 GMT

at the point of accepting this offer
i did not think long term

to me, it was just a lifeline
how cld i not grab?

but now
i see how i was putting myself in a mess

how i am to get out of this mess
is beyond me

and it's just a job

Am I lydat too?

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 02:10:05 GMT

I can sense Ying's exasperation with me.
I guess she's exasperated because she's worried for me.

It reminded me of my exasperation over Y.

Am I lydat too?

Sorry, I didn't mean to worry anyone.

I know what I am doing. But I know I have my blind spots. Plenty of them.
When I ask my friends for their opinion, it doesn't mean I am making them responsible for my decisions.
I know very well that my Heart never takes anyone advice but ts own.
I needed to think aloud, walk through the thinking process with someone, and make myself face all the pros and cons head on.
With that, I will have courage to move on. Regardless of the amount of support garnered.

Very often, there are no right or wrong decisions. I know.
We can only hope we are making an informed and well-evaluated one.

And Good Decisions are seldom popular ones :P

I love you, my dear friends.
And I can never say this enough.

Giving a Damn

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 02:09:25 GMT

Someone else expressed amusement over the fact that I am maintaining several online accounts (facebook, blogs etc).

If it's up to me, everything in Life will be compartmentalized. Everything in its own place.

But then, it will be all so boring.

Thank God for complications!

The credit card promoter and his phone

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 03:10:51 GMT

So, this HSBC credit card promoter was walking towards me.

Before he could say anything, I blurted, 'I need to borrow your phone!'

And he agreed.

Didn't even bat an eyelid when I told him I need to remove his SIM card and insert mine.

Done it all nicely for me.

Crush. Crushed

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 00:36:31 GMT

Crushie

I had a new crushie.

And I was losing sleep over him.

Then I tossed and I turned all night.

And when I got woken, by the noises of the rabbit's digging and the neighbour's drilling this morning ...

I had my heart back in its rightful place.

Phew!

Not all crushes are sweet.

Crushed

I am tendering, again.

下雨的时候会想你

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 16:03:29 GMT

~ 阿杜

虽然闭上眼睛比清醒更清醒
窗外应该飘着雨此刻应该是黎明
因为听不到你轻轻呼吸的声音
只有潮湿的泪, 贴着脸颊和枕头

天空下起雨的时候我就会想你
我想你怎么小心翼翼在我生命里
你不愿在我身边留下任何的痕迹
因为你说我应该有完整的自己

天空下起雨的时候我就会想你
更相信我是活在那些有你的回忆
明知道世界不会因为我想就下雨
可是我却不愿放过每一夜的相遇

虽然闭上眼睛比清醒更清醒
窗外应该飘着雨此刻应该是黎明
因为听不到你轻轻呼吸的声音
只有潮湿的泪, 贴着脸颊和枕头

I am terribly stuck on this song. Since last week.

Singlehood

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 16:15:59 GMT

I hadn't dated for two years now.

I am actually enjoying the single status.

Nobody to report to,

nobody's sensitivity to worry over.

I can think of whoever i want,

meet whoever i want,

do whatever i like.

Not having to worry about hurting anyone.

Perhaps all i want

is someone

who i will instinctively care for.

Someone who i dun have to make such a conscious effort to care for.

Becoz when u truely care abt someone,

u naturally will not do those things tat will hurt him/her,

it won't be a conscious effort,

there will be very little inner struggle.

In other words,

I am too self-centered to know love.

I am better off Single and UnAvailable.

Uncompatible

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 08:35:22 GMT

Call me judgemental. And/Or nosey. Keke.

I don't like that guy. I think she deserves much much better.

I looked at them and I keep thinking,

一朵鲜花插在牛粪上！

(so tempted to doodle that .... rose in a cute puddle of poo poo ...)

But who am I to decide? My opinion doesn't and shouldn't count.
What matters is they have their eyes on each other!

And I only met him once, for a 3 hour duration.

That said, I wish them everlasting bliss.

偶遇

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 01:16:54 GMT

很喜欢在外头碰到朋友。

那总给我一种，缘分的错觉。

新加坡很小，常常转个身就碰到熟人。

但我还是感动在每一次的偶遇。。。

如果有一天，我们在街上遇上了，

请过来打声招呼，

让我

也给你一个特大号的笑容

让我们之间的回忆

多一分灿烂和美丽